I'll be your Paparazzi

Monday, January 15, 2007

I forgive, no matter.
The worst day of my life, 13/1/07, Saturday.
Only my babe knows it. Only she will know it. Maybe mum sense it. But only she knows it. She's there for me. Though her answers to my questions doesn't satisfy me. Oh well.
You see, he really means alot to me. No matter what, eventually, unfortunately, usually, eventfully and finally i'll still accept.
I thought i was dreaming, nightmare mayhaps.
Sometimes, all it takes is love to change someone, sometimes not. Preferbly not the latter.
On 13/1/07, i will have the traits of naive-ness and innocence. I'll never potrait the wicked-ness anymore.
For i love my hubby.
Babe, you gotta understand that i'm sacrificial no matter when, why what or how.
See sometimes i hate you for having things better than mine. Then again i love you for being there for me.
Babe was there with me, fighting the cold wind, whistling-staring kpos, controlling peepee and talking into the midnight. After 1am, she left.
Thanks for the lift but no thanks, thanks Andy for the lift again but no thanks.
Should have brought blanket instead, we're freezing. Nonetheless, the blood did not harden but kept flowing with every lil move i made.
I understand, i've been in his position. And so i learn the hurts i've given to others. I changed.

For once, i won't be scratching my fucked up skin. Mayhaps a lil.
For once, i won't eat meat, mayhaps a lil. Remember the words i shouted to whoever's up there?
For once, i've not eaten for 3days, first time of my life. This temptation is hard to resist, i'm fond of eating. So far, only 4 slices of wholemeal bread with egg and luncheon for 3 days.
For once, i won't be fierce.
For once, i didn't change the pampers for 11hrs considering it's the 1st day.
For once, i've learnt my mistake.
She's the one i thought of besides him. Maybe they are the 2 i can ever think of when in times like this.
Rina, i hate you yet i love you. But then you know my hubby is all i ever wanted.
Morning send my hubby to work, missed him alot alot alot alot alot now.
Til then,
i'm LOVING my hubby.


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